Faking It Until I Make It

Sometimes I feel like an impostor. I hear myself talking to someone on the phone at work and I sound authoritative and knowledgable and then I hang up and I think, 'They actually bought that?'Not that I don't think I know a little about a lot of things, but it seems strange to me that someone would seek me out as a person who has good information to hand out. These people have obviously not seen me in my natural habitat, where I start a sentence and lose my words so my kids have to interpret what I want from my hand signals. Sometimes they even get it right. I suppose what I really mean is I want people seek me out for information, just not the kind I give at my day job. I don't dislike my day job—I am grateful I have a job to go to every day and that they treat me well and pay me regularly—it's just not what I want to spend the rest of my days doing.

Someone I know just decided to follow her heart. It was a brave decision. It looks crazy to some, but it's brave. She is more than 20 years older than me and it took her this long to get up the nerve. I hope it doesn't take me two more decades to make my decision.